Darkness

I need a friend.  I need a friend to listen to me, to help me.  I am going through a dark time in my life right now.  I don’t have anyone to help me.  At least, that’s how it feels to me.  I feel as if I am falling.  Falling ever downward.  I’m not sure where the bottom is, but it feels pretty damned close.  I can’t pick myself back up on my own.  Every day I feel worse.  I get brief stints of relief from my thoughts during the day, but they pick right back up where they were, sometimes even worse.  Worse because these relatively short-lived moments make every other moment seem bleaker in comparison.  I’ve recently been having… dark thoughts.  Scary thoughts.  I don’t want to think them, but they come to me anyway.  I don’t know what to do to pick myself up.

I need a friend.  Someone that’s close, in-person.  My lack of socializing is getting worse and dragging me ever downward.  I need a friend to pick me up.  I just can’t do it for myself.